Friday, March 23, 2012

So much to share, so little time!

What a whirlwind month March has been for this momma. So many life changes happening, and for the first time in I don't know how long, I am happy about it. Not only happy about the changes, but just happy in general. I know in the past I have posted about the PTSD that surrounds my house. Well I am sorry to say, we succumbed to all the negativity, and The (soon to be) Ex and I have decided to separate divorce. Yup, that dreaded D word. We tried everything, every medicine, counseling, group therapy out there, and it all comes down to the simple fact: we were not made for each other. Sure we both have our good times and bad, but the bottom line is, we simply need to close this chapter in our lives and move on. Some days are harder then others.  Do I sit and cry myself to sleep at night? Actually I don't. Surprised? Nope, not I! Relieved is the word I would use. I literally feel like this huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. The burden of constant worry, and walking on eggshells is gone. I can now focus on myself and my children and provide us with a life that makes us all happy. We have officially been moved out for almost 2 weeks now, and I must admit, sleeping on my Bob-O-Pedic feels AMAZING on my back. Oh how I missed thee!! 

Was this decision easy to come to? Nope, not at all. In fact it took many many wonderful friends and family members pounding it in my head, to realize how bad of a situation I was living in, and even worse, letting my children see everyday.  After a quick chat with Peanuts teacher, she has informed me that she is adjusting extremely well to the move, and is doing better in school then ever before- yippie! So that just reaffirms that everything I am doing is for the better. Thing is, once I made the decision to be done, I never looked back, I didn't have that voice anymore telling me to go back. That voice is the burden I have been carrying for far too many years.

In other news.... I LANDED MY DREAM JOB! ! ! Like I cannot even tell you how thrilled I am!!!! I will explain more in detail in another post, but for now I will explain that I will be working full time helping Military families! For those of you who know me, you will surely understand how much this means to me. It literally is a dream come true.

 Everything is slowly falling into place piece by piece. I never thought I could feel like this, and have so much to look forward to, but I sure as hell do!  I seriously cannot wait to continue to share it with you guys!


  1. Woot! Congratulations, girl! I knew you could do it!

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